7:32 pm - 04.12.2005
Last day of high school and reflection
Last Day of High School and Reflection
It is depressing...*tear* Me being a fsking idiot never actually thought the whole process would come. The days blew by so fast and now they are here. The end-times. So much has happened and one wouldn't know where to even begin. I remember it all. From winning Roam since I made it in to finding out life isn't fun...lol. Why would it come here fast...no chance of appreciating it, you know? I rather wait a year till start college but I can't. Not because my boyfriend is 1 year yonger than me but I rather explore the world and maybe, probably, realize, what I want out of life. Life has to go on and i have to do what is required of me according to the parentals so no way in hell will that happen. This isn't fun.What do I want to do with my life.Write alot, get a job*definitely in college*, and do something worthy*here is the one I really want*.But I can not and that is the part that sucks. Especially being an alum...So yeah, I'm depressed and probably will be even more when I graduate on Saturday with 409 other girls listening to my friend's final words and Anna's Valedictorian speech. Should both be good.*TEAR*At least, I have another graduation to look forward to unlike my mom who knew her ending of her education was the last.Now, that is depressing.I don't like this at all.Apparently, today was senior awards.I won "Will Impress Us The Most At 25th Renion". I wonder how i will do it. Having kids and working, no. Nobel Prize, no. I have no idea. Lol. It will fun seeing the results.I think I can do that but should start sooner.Shouldn't wait till then.At least, I know that.I need know to find myself again and fast so i can survive.I think I know who I am yet need some form of reassurance which would be good.That is key.That and stoticism or self-control. Definitely stoticism Just knowing someone is there like friends... Bye and Love..Depressed Azriel...
Reflection: Being in rush, this reflection isn't as deep as it could possibly be but looking back I haven't changed that much. I cried at the end of DePaul's first fall quarter for me because I loved it so very much. It was fun. Xevec and late nites made the expereience worthwhile and it is one that I intend to keep and if sent to MVCC then i'm coming back to DePaul to finish either the last 2 years or graduate school there. I like DePaul alot and it is so much better than McAuley. Sure, I had fun but College is an utterly new experience.
