12:37 am - 29.11.2006
Nate-sama is sick....
I don't like it when my boyfriend's sick I felt so helpless and worse even more when he didn't want to talk anymore with me. I apparently was doing nothing to make him feel better and since I've been sick, I feel as if he's sick because of me. And now, there's the possibility I can't visit him Friday because of it. It just keeps making me feel worse and worse, I'm more surprised that the tears haven't flowed. I guess I'm just really worried - he sounded really bad on the phone and was dizzy at the time of my second call not knowing where he was ( apparently and I *hope* home). This just sucks. Nate-sama feel better, mmkay? And sorry, I called you cranky. You were and I could tell you were tired. I'm just worried. I wanted you just to get home safe. *wipes falling tears* I feel like an idiot worrying. You'll be fine and I'll see you soon, yes? Good.
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This didn't make me feel better. I'll just have to wait for tomorrow and hope that he snoozes well. I don't care (fuck it, I do) if I visit him Friday. I rather though see him feeling him feeling better though and happier, livelier, energetic - the old him.
